A Fantastic Weekend!

I wasn’t able to post this weekend. Our weekend was full of snow! It’s a rare thing to get snow where we live in Texas but the last three years have given us one good snow fall. It was beautiful! Jacob had a great time playing in the snow. He and Daddy would fill up their buckets and bring the snow over to me so I could shape the snowman.

It wasn’t a perfect snowman, but it was a Texas-style snowman. :-p I’m loving his peppermint eyes. Sadly, he melted yesterday. He was good company while he was around.

On Saturday, we took the kids and RH’s niece to go ice skating for our oldest boy’s birthday. He turned 9! The kids (and parents ;)) had a blast. It was so much fun.

This weekend we stayed with my gracious parents. The pipes were still frozen and messed up so they let us spend the weekend with them. I think they liked our company. They got to spend some time with their grandson. My dad made a delicious breakfast casserole and RH got to visit with them quite a bit. Everyone had a great time.

We will be going back home today. I honestly cannot wait. I want to clean, organize and work on my Valentine’s and Easter decorations (Finally!). I am thinking grilled cheese and good, old-fashioned chicken noodle soup for dinner. RH will be working on the pipes after work so I need an easy meal that won’t require much water or washing of anything.

The weather was so beautiful yesterday. I am longing for Spring!

Yesterday’s message at church was about trust, more specifically, trusting in God. The pastor said that people who completely trust in the Lord are less stressed and experience less worry. What a wonderful message. I would love to take stress away from my life. In the last month, it has been melting away. Our life has already changed so much for the better.

He said, “Why trust God?”  God loves us and God wants to help us. It is incredible to think that our Creator, the King of Kings, wants to help ME? Wants to see me succeed? Who else could help me more than Him? When you trust God with everything, the results are beautiful.

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I will praise You in the storm.

Life is hard. So you learned something new today, right?

Sometimes I have to put serious effort into being positive. I feel like such a horrible person for admitting that. I have many reasons to feel blessed. My baby boy being at the top of that list… I love him more than anything in the world. He is such an amazing little man and always has a way of making me laugh when I need it.

Look at that little baby angel. I know you just want to pinch his little cheeks. He is in the stage where he talks non-stop, chitter chattering all the way to whatever destination in the car and constantly telling me stories about Batman and Ironman. He loves when I play cars with him on his Spiderman street rug on the floor of his room. Love that boy.

RH and I are having some issues. I made him mad yesterday. He was grouchy all afternoon and night. He was being mean to me this morning. I can’t help myself but in times like this my mind instantly jumps to, “Leave! Leave! Leave! Go do you on your own. You can do it!” I know it’s wrong. I shouldn’t have that not fight and flight instant reaction. I am working soooo hard on training myself not to think that way. I just get total anxiety and panic, which leads to wanting to leave and get away from this stress. 

I know that RH and I are great for each other in so many ways. We complement each other perfectly. When he is strong in one category, I am weak. Where I am better equipped in certain situations, he isn’t so confident. We balance each other nicely and I see that clearly.

Although RH was mad at me and pushing my buttons, I continued to just be calm and let the storm pass. I didn’t yell at him. I didn’t say anything negative to him. I just said, “I understand that made you upset and I’m really sorry. I know we have both been working hard on making things better and I will try my hardest not to upset you like that again.” Eventually, around 9:00 this morning, he sent me a text message saying “I’m sorry I was being mean. I really love you. xoxo.” When we used to fight it would last ALL day, or even all weekend. It was horrible. Things are improving greatly with the help of God.

Yesterday I got a book in the mail from Amazon.com called “Finding the Hero in Your Husband” by Dr. Julianna Slattery. I was only able to read a few pages last night but it looks promising. Has anyone else read this book? I am excited to read more. It had rave reviews on Amazon. She is a Christian psychologist and talks on the importance of changing YOU to change your relationship, not focusing on the flaws of your significant other.

 As for the house, pipes are frozen. A pipe burst in the kitchen yesterday but it froze all the water that was coming out so that was convenient at least – kept the water from spraying all over the entire room. We turned the water to the house off so when it melts we won’t have a flooded kitchen.

Last night I went to visit my parents. They let us use their shower because of the pipe situation. While over there, my mom let me look through her vintage postcard collection to choose a few Valentine and Easter themed cards. I am going to do a project with them to decorate for those holidays coming up. I will be working on it this weekend and surely take pictures to post!

Hope this finds you well. God Bless!

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades. Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame.

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Fer-eeez-ing-ah.

Wind chill of -5. Not fun in our little, poorly insulated farm house. We love living in the country and are so blessed to have a large, if older, home. It needs quite a bit of work but I am so excited about the day we can begin all of our renovations.

We need to get the house leveled which costs a pretty penny if it is going to be done correctly and last. We have received several quotes and are saving up for this to be done. Of course, we run the risk of having the house split in two or fall apart or some other disastrous ending but to keep things from shifting around even more or stuff sliding off of shelves, it needs to be done.

I felt so bad for our outside doggies. They looked like little snowmen all huddled together this morning. I made them a cushy place to sleep so hopefully they aren’t too cold.

Last night I read the first part of Ruth as laid out on the Bible Study at the Time-Warp-Wife. It was interesting. Hop on over to her site and there is a printable guide with questions to fill out. I wanted to read more but I was trying to focus just on the first chapter. Link below:

http://time-warp-wife.blogspot.com/2011/01/bible-study-ruth-chapter-1-link-up.html

God truly is good. I see him rewarding me and helping me along the way. Things have radically changed in my life and it is fantastic.

We have been having problems with debt and we were hoping to start off with a clean slate after I get my income tax refund. I was hoping for around the same amount as I received last year and planning on how we could use that same amount of money this year. This wouldn’t allow for much *fun* spending on things needed but not NECESSARY… like furniture, a kitchen table, china cabinet, etc. My amount from last year would pay off bills, financed items, loans and help us get some things out of pawn.

I was shocked to find out this morning that the amount I will be receiving this year is TWICE the amount I received last year. Praise to God! He is truly looking out for our little family. We will be able to start off with a clean slate and get some furniture to make our house more homey and pleasant. 🙂 I want a comfy place for us to spend our time. I will be focusing more on decorating and I have been keeping the house clean. I love it.

Thank you for all of your feedback. It is deeply appreciated.

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O, wind, If Winter comes, can Spring be far behind? – Percy Bysshe Shelley

So here I sit… planning my Easter decorations and dreaming of springtime when **BAM** more of this cold, rainy stuff… Oh well, another excuse for hot chocolate. 🙂

We Texans aren’t used to this cold weather. Tonight the low with be in the 20s and people are cancelling school and making sure they have jugs of water, batteries and canned food ready. Well, not the last part, I think, but I’m sure you Northerners are laughing at us about now. There is a small chance of snow on  Thursday!

Last night I made chicken enchiladas care of Janelle over at Comfy in the Kitchen. They. Were. Incredible. You must try this recipe. Link below:

http://comfynkitchen.blogspot.com/2011/01/chicken-enchiladas.html

I need to improve in my picture-taking habits. The dish was beautiful! Afterwards, I made fried banana cakes (just the name sounds healthy, right?). They were sprinkled with powdered sugar. RH ate them up. He took some for breakfast this morning.

I am about to begin studying the book of Ruth. I received this bible study from time-warp-wife.blogspot.com. Can’t wait to see what I learn. 🙂

I will be honest with you. I haven’t had lots of experience reading the bible. I am working on that. I now have a thirst for God’s knowledge and hope he blesses me with wisdom that I can only gain by reading His word.

I started off by reading from Matthew. I decided to look through the Old Testament as well. I began to read some of Leviticus and was just confused. Why were there passages about how to treat slaves? What is all this about animal sacrifices? I felt like this went against everything I thought God would want for us. I was deeply troubled and wanted an explanation. Luckily, I am blessed to have a co-worker who is a pastor at a local church (just another small way God let himself into my life!). The next morning I asked him to explain. I told him I was aware this world probably be an hour-long conversation and he doesn’t have the time but I asked him for some insight as to what these verses meant.

He told me that when I sit down to study the bible I should first begin with a prayer asking God for understanding and the ability to comprehend what I am about to read. He said it is difficult to understand the bible without God’s assistance.

He explained that much of what is in the Old Testament is symbolic. He also said that animal sacrifice was common place before Jesus shed His blood for us on the cross because they would repent of their sins with animal blood. After we were washed in the blood of Jesus and cleansed of our sins, animal blood was no longer necessary.

How do you all feel about this explanation? Any tips about the Old Testament for a newbie navigating these waters?

P.S. Thank goodness for spell check. Ha.

Hope everyone is having a fantastic day. Lots of love going your way!

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I go back to December all the time…

God’s grace and forgiveness truly are amazing. This last week has been one of the best in quite a while. I have been making dinner, keeping the house clean, spending more time with my baby boy and decorating. I’ve been using my apron! 🙂

On Friday, RH took me to an estate sale I had been reading about. Finances were a little tight last week but he knew how much I wanted to go. I found the most beautiful dish to place my jewelry in (I keep one on top of my dresser), a gorgeous locket and two different casserole dishes. We had such a good time. I also found an 80-piece china set just like the one I had always wanted for sale. RH knew how much I wanted it but I was okay leaving it there since we didn’t have too much to spend this week. He surprised me and bought! It came with the cutest matching cream and sugar bowls. I set them out on the table after I decorated for Valentine’s day. Pictures coming soon!

He must be noticing a change. I have noticed one in him also.

We got into a horrible fight on Sunday morning. I am not even sure how it started (doesn’t that happen a lot?) but it got ugly fast. I was so depressed. I just laid in bed that morning and wallowed in self-pity, thinking to myself “Why is this happening? Things will never be better. He will never change.” Of course, things are never my fault… 😉 I am disappointed in myself and how soon I gave up. I quickly put the blame on him when my reaction was less than perfect also.

After about an hour of being grumpy with each other, I apologized to RH for my actions. He quickly followed and apologized as well. This NEVER happened before. We would fight tooth and nail for 3 or 4 hours sometimes with neither one budging. While the argument made me sad yesterday morning, it also made me feel incredible. Yes, we argued but we came to an agreement and we both apologized for our not-so-nice part in it. We moved on with our morning, went to church and enjoyed the day! Amazing how God has helped us overcome.

The title of this post comes from the song by Taylor Swift. Last night I had the most horrible nightmare. It had to do with RH and our past. I woke up with instant anxiety and a flood of emotions from the past rolling in. As I was getting ready, I thought about how I knew this would cause conflict. RH hadn’t even done anything but I was already building our day on the foundation of that horrible dream. While getting ready in the bathroom, I got down on my knees and asked for God’s help. I wanted Him to take my anxiety, fear and stress so we could have a positive beginning to our day. As I prayed, I felt the weight being lifted off my shoulders. I took a deep breath and kissed my honey good morning with no bad emotions holding me back!

Hope everyone had a great weekend.

P.S. I am participating in the 25 Day Praise Plan. It’s never too late to participate in this challenge. Everyday is a great day to make your husband feel special. Click on the link to hop on over to Courtney’s Women Living Well blog to get the info.

http://womenlivingwell-courtney.blogspot.com/2011/01/25-day-praise-plan-marriage-challenge.html

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Scene 1: The intro

I mostly made this blog for myself. Who am I kidding? I want feedback.

This have been seriously messed up since last year. I mean, two years ago… no wait, three years ago? I don’t know where it all fell apart.

This a log of my journey. I want to see how far I can come. I want to see how much I can grow. I want you to see it, too.

I have never had a close relationship with Jesus. I felt a void. I felt that something was missing. I felt like my life was a roller-coaster ride and I couldn’t get it to stop or slow down. I was slowly losing control.

Everyone knows that a recipe of young love, false promises and a non-existent relationship with the Lord can end up disastrous. That’s what happened to me. Although, he was an alcoholic, I liked to pretend I was perfect and had no fault in our downfall. Why didn’t he love me enough to stop drinking? Why didn’t he love our newborn son enough to stop his foolishness? I realize now that he had a serious problem: a disease. It festered in our new marriage and our young love, poisoning it all. I will never regret the choice to love him. I received the best gift of all: our beautiful, baby boy. I also hope that he learned something from our time together. I know I learned too many lessons a little too late.

Fast forward a few years, I met a wonderful man. I will refer to him as RH. He is wonderful. He is a hard worker. He is the father my son no longer has. He helps people. He strives for excellence. He wants something better for his children and better for me.

Sadly, as it often does, both of our past relationships left us with lots of emotional baggage to sort through. This is our life now. We are a blended family and although it is wonderful, it is so very difficult at times. The past year has brought us many challenges. We have nearly called it quits a few times even though we both desperately wanted to make things work.

We began going to church about six months ago. We both loved the message and the time of worship. I longed for a relationship with God. I asked him into my heart. I asked him to heal this relationship. I asked him to cleanse me of my sins.

There were so many things I didn’t know about our Lord. I am striving to learn the ways he has set up for us. I am embarrassed to admit that I haven’t spent much time studying the bible. That is changing. I grew up going to church but I never enjoyed it. I never felt like I was getting anything out of it. That has changed. I asked  God to take me in and teach me and I feel that he has touched my heart.

It has been a few weeks since I have started living differently. I have submitted to God and am learning to submit to my husband as well. Things have radically changed. We are so much happier. We talk more. We laugh more. Sure, there are speed bumps along the way. We are still have some of our old habits. I have apologized twice in the last two days and I’m sure RH can tell you that I’m not known to do that!

This is my journey that my God has sent me on.

I can’t wait to see where he takes me next.

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