Life is hard. So you learned something new today, right?
Sometimes I have to put serious effort into being positive. I feel like such a horrible person for admitting that. I have many reasons to feel blessed. My baby boy being at the top of that list… I love him more than anything in the world. He is such an amazing little man and always has a way of making me laugh when I need it.
Look at that little baby angel. I know you just want to pinch his little cheeks. He is in the stage where he talks non-stop, chitter chattering all the way to whatever destination in the car and constantly telling me stories about Batman and Ironman. He loves when I play cars with him on his Spiderman street rug on the floor of his room. Love that boy.
RH and I are having some issues. I made him mad yesterday. He was grouchy all afternoon and night. He was being mean to me this morning. I can’t help myself but in times like this my mind instantly jumps to, “Leave! Leave! Leave! Go do you on your own. You can do it!” I know it’s wrong. I shouldn’t have that not fight and flight instant reaction. I am working soooo hard on training myself not to think that way. I just get total anxiety and panic, which leads to wanting to leave and get away from this stress.
I know that RH and I are great for each other in so many ways. We complement each other perfectly. When he is strong in one category, I am weak. Where I am better equipped in certain situations, he isn’t so confident. We balance each other nicely and I see that clearly.
Although RH was mad at me and pushing my buttons, I continued to just be calm and let the storm pass. I didn’t yell at him. I didn’t say anything negative to him. I just said, “I understand that made you upset and I’m really sorry. I know we have both been working hard on making things better and I will try my hardest not to upset you like that again.” Eventually, around 9:00 this morning, he sent me a text message saying “I’m sorry I was being mean. I really love you. xoxo.” When we used to fight it would last ALL day, or even all weekend. It was horrible. Things are improving greatly with the help of God.
Yesterday I got a book in the mail from Amazon.com called “Finding the Hero in Your Husband” by Dr. Julianna Slattery. I was only able to read a few pages last night but it looks promising. Has anyone else read this book? I am excited to read more. It had rave reviews on Amazon. She is a Christian psychologist and talks on the importance of changing YOU to change your relationship, not focusing on the flaws of your significant other.
As for the house, pipes are frozen. A pipe burst in the kitchen yesterday but it froze all the water that was coming out so that was convenient at least – kept the water from spraying all over the entire room. We turned the water to the house off so when it melts we won’t have a flooded kitchen.
Last night I went to visit my parents. They let us use their shower because of the pipe situation. While over there, my mom let me look through her vintage postcard collection to choose a few Valentine and Easter themed cards. I am going to do a project with them to decorate for those holidays coming up. I will be working on it this weekend and surely take pictures to post!
Hope this finds you well. God Bless!
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades. Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame.