I go back to December all the time…

God’s grace and forgiveness truly are amazing. This last week has been one of the best in quite a while. I have been making dinner, keeping the house clean, spending more time with my baby boy and decorating. I’ve been using my apron! 🙂

On Friday, RH took me to an estate sale I had been reading about. Finances were a little tight last week but he knew how much I wanted to go. I found the most beautiful dish to place my jewelry in (I keep one on top of my dresser), a gorgeous locket and two different casserole dishes. We had such a good time. I also found an 80-piece china set just like the one I had always wanted for sale. RH knew how much I wanted it but I was okay leaving it there since we didn’t have too much to spend this week. He surprised me and bought! It came with the cutest matching cream and sugar bowls. I set them out on the table after I decorated for Valentine’s day. Pictures coming soon!

He must be noticing a change. I have noticed one in him also.

We got into a horrible fight on Sunday morning. I am not even sure how it started (doesn’t that happen a lot?) but it got ugly fast. I was so depressed. I just laid in bed that morning and wallowed in self-pity, thinking to myself “Why is this happening? Things will never be better. He will never change.” Of course, things are never my fault… 😉 I am disappointed in myself and how soon I gave up. I quickly put the blame on him when my reaction was less than perfect also.

After about an hour of being grumpy with each other, I apologized to RH for my actions. He quickly followed and apologized as well. This NEVER happened before. We would fight tooth and nail for 3 or 4 hours sometimes with neither one budging. While the argument made me sad yesterday morning, it also made me feel incredible. Yes, we argued but we came to an agreement and we both apologized for our not-so-nice part in it. We moved on with our morning, went to church and enjoyed the day! Amazing how God has helped us overcome.

The title of this post comes from the song by Taylor Swift. Last night I had the most horrible nightmare. It had to do with RH and our past. I woke up with instant anxiety and a flood of emotions from the past rolling in. As I was getting ready, I thought about how I knew this would cause conflict. RH hadn’t even done anything but I was already building our day on the foundation of that horrible dream. While getting ready in the bathroom, I got down on my knees and asked for God’s help. I wanted Him to take my anxiety, fear and stress so we could have a positive beginning to our day. As I prayed, I felt the weight being lifted off my shoulders. I took a deep breath and kissed my honey good morning with no bad emotions holding me back!

Hope everyone had a great weekend.

P.S. I am participating in the 25 Day Praise Plan. It’s never too late to participate in this challenge. Everyday is a great day to make your husband feel special. Click on the link to hop on over to Courtney’s Women Living Well blog to get the info.

http://womenlivingwell-courtney.blogspot.com/2011/01/25-day-praise-plan-marriage-challenge.html

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