Our God is awesome God. :)

Lately, I have had one line stuck in my head.

“I am the Lord, YOUR God.”

A few weeks ago in church, the pastor spoke of the importance in that statement. I had never focused on that much but just the thought of it now brings my heart so much joy. That is how personal God is with each and everyone of us. He isn’t just a king that sits on a throne overseeing all the people. We are on a personal journey with Him. He is OUR God. He is YOUR God and he is MY God.

God cares about me and knows me personally. That is such an amazing thought. Who else is better equipped to help you in life?

It has been awhile since I posted. My camera is out of batteries but last Friday I had such a great time thrift shopping. I found some great treasures. I had one special project and I love the results. Hopefully, I will be able to feature it in my next post with pictures!

Last week was a bit rough. My heart felt heavy for some reason. I sometimes get bad anxiety and just generally feel uneasy or anxious. Today I am feeling much better and light-hearted. I try to direct my thoughts toward God and unload my burdens on him. It helps but sometimes I have a hard time shaking the feelings.

Today I embarked upon a new challenge! Rh and I worked up a verbal contract on a weight loss challenge. Sounds horrible I know – haha, but he knows I haven’t been happy about the few pounds I put on. I received a gift card to Cato for my birthday but didn’t want to buy any clothes since I have gained some weight so I am saving that as part of my reward.

The challenge:

I have 2 months from yesterday (Deadline: May 2) to lose 15 pounds. It is going to be tough but we were striving for  a real challenge and who doesn’t love a little competition?

The stakes:

If I lose the 15 lbs by the agreed deadline, RH is going to take me on a shopping spree! I get to spend a certain amount on new clothes (plus my saved gift card!!).

Blogland, you must hold me accountable. I will be updating you each Monday morning with my weight loss for the week. I will weight myself on Sundays when I have access to a scale.

I am excited about this challenge. I want to lose the weight I put on since meeting RH. It will make me feel so much better. When I eat healthy, I have so much more energy!

This morning I woke up at 4:30 (I have to be out the door at 6:15 to have time to drop off Jacob and make it to work at 7:00.) I spent about 20 minutes doing a work out video. I then read the bible for a bit and then got ready for work. I had leisurely time to get ready without rushing too much and it made my morning so much nicer. The day was off to such a great start. This is another goal I am making for myself. By working out in the mornings, I get my day off on a good note and it is easier to stick to my healthy-eating plan.

Let me know if you are on a similar weight-loss kick. I would love to hear your tips. Can’t wait to post some pictures of my decorating triumphs with you all! I am getting my new curtains today. They should be in the mail!

Everyone have a great day and God bless!

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Thanks-living

I am inspired to write a post due to Aunt Ruthie over at the Sugar Pie Farmhouse. Her little blog is so adorable and her decorating sense is incredible. Who doesn’t love another good ol’ southern gal? ;) Click on the link to hop on over to her blog and check it out.

http://www.sugarpiefarmhouse.com

In her newest blog post, Aunt Ruthie talks about “Thanks-living.” This is something I have been focusing on quite often in recent months. She goes on to explain that Thanks-living is living your life with intention and looking for the small blessings in day-to-day activities.

I always try to start my prayers off singing God’s praises and thanking Him for all the wonderful things He has given me. Sometimes I just jump into a prayer, pouring out my problems and then think, “Sorry, God. I have all sorts of things around me that you have blessed me with. Sometimes my problems are so tiny compared to the problems of others in the world.”

Today, I want to recommit to being positive. I want to try even harder to look around at the beauty and blessing the Lord has already bestowed upon me.

I have a roof over my head. We have food to eat. I am able to make my home a beautiful sanctuary for my family. I have a job. We are able to have fun. We have our health. We live in a wonderful, free country. I have my baby boy – the biggest blessing of all!

I hope everyone else is doing well. I pray that you are able to see the blessings around you as well.

On another note, last weekend I was able to plant some flowers in the garden. The weather is so crazy here in Texas! I’m pretty sure it was almost 80 degrees yesterday – no lie.

Jacob had so much fun helping me take pitchers of water out to water our new flowers. It’s amazing how a simple task can be so fun for a toddler. And who am I calling toddler?? He’s four now. My little baby is growing up.

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Birthday recap :)

We had a great weekend.

I was sad on Friday. We weren’t able to go to Houston. RH had to work. I decided to look at this as a blessing. God knows we need the overtime! Those extra hours will make this week much better on payday.

RH was working on fixing up one of his trucks to sell on Saturday morning. I had a good time just spending time with him, watching him tinkering with his tools and letting him explain to me what various parts of the engine are for (I was trying to take mental notes for the next time my car won’t start.) He is incredible and I loved just spending the morning watching him work and riding with him to the auto parts store – getting Icees at the convenience store. That man spoils me way too much. :-p Love him.

On Saturday night, he took me out to eat for my birthday. We went to a local place with my sister and her fiance. We had a great time. I had ribs – horrible, I know. So delicious though! After dinner, we were planning on seeing a movie. We went to Kirklands (best store ever… they have the cutest home decor and reasonably price, often on sale!). RH bought me a picture for the kitchen that I have been wanting. It’s a cute and colorful, framed rooster. Whimsical and makes me smile.

After Kirklands, we went to a local fancy restaurant that is famous for their desserts. I ordered the strawberry tart and it was so so so good. RH got a chocolate amaretto mousse bombe. Just the name sounds awesome, doesn’t it?

After dessert, we were really pushing our movie time so we just decided not to go. We went home and snuggled on the couch while watching a movie. It was a great night and I’m so thankful he put effort into it – he even surprised me with a card on Friday!

Church on Sunday was about becoming a good leader. I have never really thought of myself as a leader of much but yesterday opened my eyes and let me realize that I have many opportunities to lead. I am leading my son by teaching him how to live a good life and how to function properly in society. I am leading RH as we encourage each other to become better people and constantly improve ourselves. I am leading others around me by my actions and other people see how I react to certain situations and temptations.

I am going to continue to work on sending out the right messages so people who are around me are influenced in a positive direction. I pray that I can be receptive to God’s messages and let Him lead me in the right direction.

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Desiring Purity – Time Warp Wife

First of all, if you haven’t stopped by the Time Warp Wife blog you need to do so now. Her advice is empowering and her ideas are pretty amazing. She is such an inspiration each day to try a little harder and live life the way God intended.

http://time-warp-wife.blogspot.com/

Yesterday she answered a letter from a reader. Although I didn’t write the letter, I pretty much could have. This issue weighs so heavily on my heart and I must confess here on my blog.

RH and I aren’t married. We have dreamed of getting married but the long rough patch we went through kept pushing that date off until later and later. I can see now that this is probably because we WEREN’T living life the way God intended. God already has a plan laid out for us and we pretty much said “No thanks, God! We got this. We know what is best for us.” We obviously don’t. I know that now.

This topic weighs down my spirit. We are trying so hard to live a Godly life but this one area is where we still sin AND. WE. KNOW. IT. After so long, it would put a tremendous strain on our relationship to stop being intimate. Should we just split our lives and move into separate dwellings? I don’t think that is the right answer. Should we get married right away? Once again, I’m not sure. We have been seeing a wedding on the horizon but for a while we were arguing almost daily and that kept pushing our dream further and further back.

I feel like God just slapped me in the face with this article via Darlene. I feel like a hypocrite asking God for forgiveness and then continuing on to live this way. I pray that we continue to keep our relationship on the right path and that a wedding will be in our near future.

This is a topic I have been wanting to release ever since I started my blog. I hope no one judges me too harshly. I am ashamed of this topic and can’t wait until it is a non-issue.

God bless.

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Tuesday

I hope everyone had an awesome Valentine’s Day. I know RH and I had a fabulous night. He even surprised me with MORE roses – a big red bouquet. It was beautiful and made sure he knew how much it meant to me. I love fresh flowers and the fact that they went out of his way to make me happy meant so much. I am trying so hard to return the favor.

I made lasagna, a nice salad and cheesy toast.  I decorated the table with a pink table cloth, heart confetti and some of my roses. I placed a picture of us as the centerpiece and lit a candle. I placed my chair so RH could still see the TV (like always at dinner time) and while I was getting our plates together, he moved my chair across from his and left the TV off. That means so much. I will always remember that. He loves watching TV to relax and it is always on at dinner time (even though I prefer it off… he works hard and he likes to unwind with the TV sometimes).  We finished off with cheesecake for desert. Simply delish! I had cheesecake for breakfast this morning… is that wrong?

My birthday is coming up this weekend. I will be 23 on Saturday. We are planning on spending Friday in Houston. There are some fantastic flea markets in H-town and I am hoping to stop by some thrift store also. We don’t have much room in our budget for a ton of spending on my birthday but I hope to snag some unique treasures I can use for decorating.

We missed church on Sunday. We took our other son out for his birthday. He wanted to go ice skating also and they have a special on Sunday at noon. Two birthday weekends in a row is tough on the pocket book but everyone had a great time. It is a fantastic workout for sure.

The boys are growing up so fast. I am longing for a baby but this isn’t the right time in our lives. I can’t wait until we can add a little girl to the bunch. Our family would be complete! I can’t wait until the day we are ready to add to our family. I will have to introduce my ovaries to patience until then… *sigh*

I don’t like missing church. When we go to church it just starts the week off on a positive note. I know that God is always there for me, not just at church on Sundays. I have been spending time reading the Bible and I love what I have been learning.

Does anyone have any suggestions for a good self-taught Bible study? I would love to know.

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Valentine’s Day:.

Happy Valentine’s Day!

Hope everyone is having a wonderful day.

I haven’t been online much the last few days. My baby boy had strep throat. Not fun at all! He is doing better now and I’m back at work.

Today is the last day for the 25-Day Praise Plan. It was leading up to Valentine’s Day. I’m sure you all know that this isn’t the end. The 25 days were just the beginning! Husbands need to feel special and loved all the time. This will help with your relationship tremendously.

We have had a few rough patches but I’m happy to say we made it into February with WAY less arguments. I am so proud of us! I know we have both been working hard to cut down on the fighting. We both have the same goal in mind.

I know the previous post wasn’t all flowers and sunshine but I want to share that with whoever reads this blog as well. We are not perfect by any means but we are making it work. We are sticking it out together and we love each other so much. I’m excited for the rest of our lives together. Yesterday he even surprised me with a balloon and roses when he went out to the hardware store to get pipe parts! :) It was so sweet and made my day.

Sometimes it is hard to put the other person’s needs and feelings above your own but it is so worth it in the long run. I want to continue to have a happy and healthy relationship to show our children.

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Busy day.

Yesterday was nice. I was just happy in general. The mood carried on after a great weekend. We haven’t had such a good weekend in awhile and it was refreshing.

I started on my craft project yesterday. I took the mats, old photos and glass out of the 4 frames I purchased from Goodwill. I then spray painted them white. They will need a second coat of paint and it was a little late yesterday so I didn’t get to finish up.

I also purchased two brass candlesticks from the Hospice Thriftstore. One is a regular looking candle stick and the other is flower shaped and a little shorter. I spray painted the tall one white and the flower one a light pink. They need another coat as well. I loved the white and pink because I can use them for Valentine’s Day and also, Easter. I am planning on tying a bow on the white one with some spring colored ribbon.

Of course, it was late and I forgot to take ‘before’ pictures but I will most certainly take ‘after’ pics!

The happiness of yesterday didn’t last all day.

I got off work and needed a glue stick for my craft projects. I sent RH a text message asking if I could stop by Walgreens on the way to pick up J from daycare. He said that was fine. On the way to Walgreens, I decided to go to Joann’s Fabrics because it is close and easier to get in and out quickly. I sent RH a text message asking him if I could go there instead. He said it was fine. I picked up my son first and then headed on over to Joann’s.

During this whole process, I was texting RH constantly. While driving… while picking up my son… while at Joann’s… He said he doesn’t have a problem with me going to the store on my own if he knows what I’m doing.

When I got home, I grabbed my bags from Joann’s and put my cell phone in my purse. I took my son inside and set my purse on the couch. My son needed to go to the bathroom so I went to turn on the light for him. When I got back to the living room, I heard the *ding* of my phone saying I received a txt.

When I checked the message, it said “What are you doing????” I txted back, “Nothing. J had to go to the bathroom. I am taking price stickers off of my stuff so I can paint it.”

During txting that last message, I got another “What are you doing???” and I responded, “I just sent you a txt.”

He called and asked what I’m doing, to which I replied the same answer as my text message. He said “Ok” and hung up on me with no “I love you” or anything like we always end off our conversations.

A short time later he sent me a text message saying, “I love you. Sorry.” and I wrote back that it was okay.

When RH got home from work (about 30 minutes later), I acted like I always do. I gave him a kiss and went about making dinner. He went to the living room to watch TV.

A short minute later, he came back in the kitchen and said “When did you turn on the TV for Jacob?” I responded, “When we got home, I turned on Cars for him to watch.”

He said, “Well, the DVR only shows that it has been playing for 8 minutes.”

I told him, “That’s because it stopped Cars to record your music show you have set to record everyday and I had to switch it back over so J could watch Cars.”

He always checks up on me and constantly accuses me of things. It is the most frustrating part of our relationship. I have never been unfaithful to him. This is our biggest struggle. It just killed my happy mood and made me wish I didn’t even try to go to the store by myself.

After this, I had a mini-breakdown. I want to be honest. I couldn’t stop crying. I felt like no matter how beautiful I try to make our home, how hard I try to be the best wife to him, it won’t matter. He still won’t trust me when I didn’t do anything to lose his trust anyway. I never wanted to be with anyone else except him.

He was rude all morning and it still being rude to me now. I’m just tired. I don’t want to be at work.

I know all the changes I am making are worthwhile. I just have to keep up the good work and try to live the way God wants. I have already seen so many changes in myself and in RH. I want us to set a good example for our children and keep our life moving forward in a positive direction.

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